Bana güzel deyişin, beni daha çok tanrıça yaptı her defasında

Defne kartal 18 ekim 2014

Bugün nehrini buldum, bir kez daha.
Ensenden omuzlarinin arasina, oradan beline kadar seni titrete titrete akan nehrine parmaklarımı daldırdım.
Sırtındaki nehirde bir kayık olsam

işte o kadar, sevgililerin en sevgilisi

Defne Kartal 18 ekim 2014

Nasıl da aşığım sana be sevgili,
nasıl da aşık

Defne kartal

Hemingway said ’ write hard and clear about what hurts’. It hurts that i havent seen you for a week. It hurts that i havent held you for more than a week.

Fuck the word ‘held’. I havent touched you for a week, you havent breathed on my skin for a week. It hurts that we stumbled along the way. It hurts because you dont fucking text. It hurts because you are hurt. Because i cant fucking focus. On anything. I am afraid and drowning. I need us to battle through whatever this is. I need it so much. It hurts that life is not supposed to be seen through Disney tainted glasses and also it hurts that i still do so, proudly. I want to pour into you again. Let me. Let me heal you, let yourself heal me. Drown me in your sadness, its okay. I dont fucking care. If someones going to fuck me up let it be you. Im willing.
It hurts so much, simply that you are not with me.
Everything hurts mr.Hemingway. And words fail me more than every before.

Defne

Pull me into your hurricane

Drown me in your ocean

I am not afraid,

I’ve never been.

defne kartal 18.09.2014

Birlikte buralardan gidebileceğimiz gün.

defne kartal 18.09.214

I want to snuggle up in your rib cage, so I can lie next to your beating heart, surrounded by your fiery veins. Then, I would live in bliss for ever, in your velvet darkness.

Then, I ‘d be with you wherever you went,

I’d climb your bones to your core and pour out of you to rest on your skin for a while.

My secret hiding place, my shelter you are.

defne kartal 18.09.2014

But he is also a beast,

untamed and violent 

and words still cut like blades,

some wounds don’t heal, some do

burns don’t heal but they don’t hurt as much as they used to

Some things I can forgive and some I never can,

some I don’t really want to because what is a lion without its pride?

defne kartal 18.09.2014

Kim olduğumu bilmiyorum,

hala anlamaya, bulmaya çalışıyorum. Nasıl yapacağımı bilmesem de seninle yapmak  istediğimi biliyorum.

Yol ayrımlarından, uçurumlardan, kapıları açmak ve kapamaktan korkuyorum.

Ama seninleysem olabildiğim en cesur halime dönüşüyorum. Seninle cesurum.

Bu dünyanın her köşesini seninle gezmek istiyorum.

Evimden, bir yere ait olmaktan vazgeçerim çünkü evim sensin ve sadece sana aidim.

defne kartal 15.09.2014

He’s a thunderstorm roaring at the bottom of an ocean,

he is the bird who has lived for thousands of years, wise and ever young still

he is the greatest marble statue, paler and more beautiful than any Greek god

with veins like rivers and eyes like arrows,

arms like home and bones like branches of the trees in winter

he is the greatest mystery of my universe,

life itself,

an extraordinary piece of art,

I am only a spectator

And I am his.

defne kartal 15.05.2014